First of all, my last post got a +1 and 6 views. Ahh! How did you people find me?! That's so exciting. Sorry I haven't posted recently, but as usual I'm soo busy. I can't wait for the summer when things can slow down.
day 17 (April 11th): I actually meditated in the morning this day and it felt so good. The funny thing, though, is that I did it in my dorm's bathroom. My roommate moves around and snores, plus I'm not very comfortable meditating with other people in the room, even if they're asleep. I still had a really nice time. I think the cold tile felt really good, too. I was able to concentrate on my breathing and the sound of the air vent. I think the cold was able to kind of wake me up and help me concentrate on my meditation even more. It just gets easier and easier each time (but don't take that TOO seriously - some days it's a little hard, but then you hop right back on). It made the rest of my day really easy and I was able to really take on the stressors head on.
day 18 (April 12th): My dance team did a wonderful little yoga class to end the year. It was amazing. I don't think I've ever felt my muscles that relaxed before without getting a massage. I breathed through every stretch and felt very in the moment. At the end we were laying down and I just sat and meditated. It was perfect. For a second I felt like I was floating, as if the ground was no longer there and I was levitating above the ground. Nothing hurt, as if my body no longer existed and I was just a living thing laying in the arms of the universe itself. It was beautiful and very relaxing/rejuvenating/happy, etc. etc. I hope I can feel that again. I think I'm gonna try and get into the habit of doing yoga since it helped me so much in that moment. Hm. We'll see.
day 19 (April 13th, today!): This was a hard one. I think it was because there was no place I could go to be alone and my boyfriend's bathroom is just gross (like.. seriously, seriously gross). Joe (thats his name) was also eating something and since I was concentrating so hard on my breath and hearing it, I could hear his mouth chewing. Being able to hear stuff like that just grinds my gears. I couldn't do it, haha. But thats okay. I don't think I was really in the right mindset to have a good moment anyway. Maybe tomorrow I'll wake up a little before him and meditate before my test.
Regardless of wither or not my meditations are good, I really have been noticing a huge change in my mood overall. I feel more reflective, contemplative, and relaxed. I feel more able to take on a stressor without letting it bring me down or turn me into a ball of crazy. I'm more able to see my anxiety as anxiety and not my reality. Some days it does try and combat that full force, but I'm easily able to accept it and move on, which is something I've never been able to do. I'm happy. Namaste.
artfully yours
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