My meditations are going so wonderfully. Not only am I so proud of myself about it, but I've also seen a change in my mood. Of course my mood hasn't completely drastically changed just from meditating for 5 days (I have also been in therapy once a week for a while now), but I have noticed that I'm more aware of my various feelings throughout the day and how to keep my anxiety in check along with going with the flow more often. I feel less angry and less confined to the rigid structures of time and anxiety. This is what I was reflecting upon during my meditation. It was very easy for me to start my meditation today, as my body slipped right into relaxation mode. I have to admit, though, I did have a beer an hour before it, so that will skew this meditation a little. Although my thoughts were still there, they weren't as active and felt calmer, more still. It was nice. There was a moment where my mind wasn't really silent, but just so focused on how my body felt that it didn't need to think, it just was feeling. That moment was beautiful. It was how I felt meditating in front of the Buddha statue in Ellora caves and when I meditated in the window of Daulatabad Fort in India. These moments have really allowed me to take a new lease on life, mentally and spiritually. When I move into my apartment in June I plan to learn about chakra healing and use my chakra candles (since I can't use them in the dorms). I'm so excited for everything, now and things coming up. Sigh, what a wonderful time to be. Namaste.
artfully yours.
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