Today's meditation felt a bit forced. Not in the sense that I didn't want to, but in the sense that I tried to push my thoughts out and it failed miserably. Understandably, though; I mean, the sure fire way to think about something is to try not to think about something. What upsets me the most is that my thoughts are really about nothing. Usually they're about something that happened days before where I felt I hurt someone's feelings or someone confronted me about something I did wrong. I think this speaks to the fact that I'm too hard on myself, which is something I've struggled with for a long time. I did find, though, that the moment I tried to just accept my thoughts, my body moved into a more relaxed state. It stayed with nice posture, but somehow all my tension (which, let me tell you, is my WHOLE body) felt as if it melted away and I sank a little into my bed. It felt wonderful! I made me realize that I need to try and find a balance with my mind and body. Let them speak to each other and swap out the relaxation energy so it's just an ever-flowing feeling within me. Soon I will get there. Namaste.
artfully yours.
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